A RANT
it has been a rocky road thus far and a trying time in my life, like whats new? its a case of same shit different year. the players are always the same and the routines always the same. climb slowly and then get shafted back to square 1.
i wrote about the latest "event" in a previous post titled "enter the dragon" but that is history and i will move on even though i am facing a new set of hurdles starting ""31st january 2012"", why am i not surprised? i will tell you why in the lines herewith following, i will also bring thanks to those that still showed me the time of day and always afforded me a kind smile even when i wasn`t in a position to supply a tip for their persistent excellent service, something that i found embarresing and battled with internally. i eventually felt obliged to ask for forgiveness for not tipping due to my life being in limbo financially and all sorts of other snags.
i met two exceptional people at the pub/ restaurant where i would treat myself to one solid meal a week on pay day and although i couldnt pay a gratuity they never once treated me badly or with disdain. i left a short note explaining my reasons for not being able to tip them but did give a timeline when i knew that i was going to be given a raise at my work place and then i would be able to do the right thing and pay my way. it is a nice enough pub/ restaurant and the food a wonderful change from the pies i keep in the fridge where i stay. it is such a small fridge that i can only keep minimal items therein. so it makes sense to stock easy stackable and packable fare such as pies. that makes up my dinner routine for the week till thursday, when i frequent the pub where the gazelle play the blues in strand. the two ladies are always there with a kind smile and friendly disposition and to them i say thank you.
the next item on my agenda this xmas time is the sad state of affairs in the world and its meaningless approach to what should be a relaxed family affair. instead it has become a money spinning disgrace with some fat fuck in a red suit stealing centre stage from what should be a day of remembrance of a great man with wisdom beyond his years. the followers of this day are the very same who claim to be super religious and faithful, but in reality they are just purveyors of misery and deceit. it is a case of the right hand giveth and the left hand taketh. in my understanding of christianity what we see the christians do today is totally against the teachings of the new testament and the christians are for some or other reason firmly still living within the misguided ramblings of war, hate, punishment and retribution of the old testament. ( there is a new testament but the christians love to harp on the old one. just a thought here, you cannot repair a 1950 vw beetle with a 2010 vw beetles manual and vice versa) in short, we need a new manual to live by, currently we are living by a 2000 year old manual and the christians even refer further back to a thousand years before. people were a tad different back then and we need to move with the times.
i wont allow these people to break me down any further and i wont allow their supposed god to hold me back any further. he has tried but i am a stubborn bastard and i not only "call" him but i raise him my soul. i have put the chips down and i await his next move.. bring it on old man, lets see what you got!
to god i say. bring it on, you wont break my spirit old man, i have you sussed out and i will bring myself back from the brink no matter what you send my way! sam and dean winchester have fuck all on my life, i have walked a long road out of hell and i will not be judged by your wicked followers or by you! i will climb back on my "horse" and into glory ride!
to santa clause i have the following to say:
Dear Santa, you sorry son of a bitch, where's my shit? I was good(ish) all year and still you brought me fuck all! I hope your sleigh crashes into the mountains on your way home and your reindeer have to eat you in order to survive you fat fuck! I even left a beer out for you, you ungrateful git! Go on a fucking diet you slob! I hope the elves shagged the shit out of Misses Clause while you were out delivering prezzies to corrupt politicians and despots. You are on my shit list you miserable bastard! Thanks for nothing Michael b da silva.
We have all been duped, flim flammed by this "so called" santa clause Lie! I am herewith consulting my lawyer, attorney, barrister and coffee barista. I am bringing formal charges in the equality, constitutional and world court against this nepotistic, charlatan that calls himself santa clause! He has NO right to decide who gets gifts or not due to those persons alleged bad behaviour! I propose and submit that santa clause is a teamster and in cahoots with ANC. Afterall he gave shabir shaik medical parole along with tony yengeni. There is CLEARLY fuckall wrong with them and they are as corrupt as politicians. This year he granted the ex chief of police a "get out of jail free" card. Yes! Santa is in a corrupt relationship with jackie selebi. Thus, members of the jury, Santa has no right to choose who has been good or bad. I therefore request that the IRS, SARS, FBI, HAWKS And the UN conduct a forensic audit on this charlatan before he destroys any more members of humanities xmas's! Santa is a fraud! Put that in your stocking and stuff it!
to the two wonderful ladies at the pub where the impala`s play the blues i say thank you once again. you were the island of reality in an ocean of misery and i wait with patience till i can see your friendly smiles once again. i have noted that there are just so many freaky chicks in this area known as strand and that all have mega issues and all manner of calamities such as bulimia, tourettes, bi polar, drug abuse, alcohol abuse etc that it is refreshing to be in your company even though it is just as a customer ordering my next draught beer. to the those that suffer from the maladies mentioned, it is imperative that you seek help from a group or from a fellowship where you can talk your issues out and find peace. if you are in relationships with people that are not standing by you and your situation you then need to leave that person and find hope and help elsewhere. it is time to stop being a victim and living in the victim mindset. you are worth it and you deserve happiness and true companionship. thank you. your kindness is the true meaning of the festive seaon unlike the overtly unhappy over the top christians who pray one minute and then swear like fucking troopers the next.
i never profess to be holy, just as honest as possible.
thank you to AB , CD and i wish you all the best BM.
to the rest of humanity i say. you aint seen nothing yet. bring it on and lets see what you got when we all face the music!michael b da silva ( as honest as possible)
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Hang in there Michael! The pendulum of luck has to swing back in your direction eventually!
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